I will never forget you!

Over 11 years ago my family choose to go out and get a puppy. My mom always use to look at the SPCA postings to see the cute dogs that where there, there was one mother that was a Chow breed who was dropped off at the SPCA with a litter of puppies. All the puppies looked some what the same to their mother besides one. This puppy had different markings and colours she was dark Gray and white with the only colours of for mother on her being 2 small spots above her eyes and some on her back legs. 

My mom fell in love with this little puppy and as soon as it was old enough to be adopted she did and took her home as a surprise for my sister and I. She was our first ever dog we had ever had and we names her Baby because she was so small and friendly and happy and kind just like a little baby. 

Baby grew up to be a big dog I considered to be a little wolf almost which may be one of the reason why I love wolves and love big dogs now. 

I went though so many twist rope toys playing with her every day in the living room.

I use to run around and play for hours in the yard with her.

She use to steam my socks all the time and I would have to argue with her to give them back.

She use to get very protective and aggressive over her food and stuff she knew she was not suppose to have, and a few times she had nipped at my hand but as soon as she saw what she did she would stop and lick my hand as to say she was sorry. 

She use to for some reason put her mouth around my arm and kinda bite down gently for some reason I don't know why she would do this but I knew I could trust her not to hurt me and it almost felt like she was showing me she would never hurt me. 

We did fix her so she could not have puppies but that did not stop her from treating me and my sister has her own. And soon we got 2 new dogs Bear and Brat (Fluffster) who she would take care of as if they where her own Brat being a Chow cross just like her. 

She use to come downstairs ever time I took food to my room and she would come lay on the bed with me and watch me eat and I would always let her lick my plate or bowl when I was done with it. It was my little secret to her because I just could not say no to her, she had taken my heart and I just did not want to see her sad ever. No other dog I had ever got the treatment I gave her, she was my Baby Girl. 

After 5 years or so she started to have issues going up and down stairs. She would have to be convinced it was ok and needed someone behind her to help her up or she would wimpier until someone came to help her. She also hated the fact we had put new floors in the kitchen and she hated walking on them as well. And when ever it got cold she would also have an even harder time. 

As she started to get older she was having a harder and harder time with the stairs and the floor, so we took her to the vet to find out she had Hip Dysplasia and that she would only a couple of years to live. 

From then on we tried to do everything we could to make her life a little better. And I tried to spend as much time with her as I could thinking she would not be with us any more.

After a while life changed for everyone and I ended up moving away from home for a few months. I missed her more then anything and with things turned sour I moved home and I think she was the happiest dog in the world to see me. I never wanted to leave her side again because I knew at some point in time she would have to leave me and I was not ready for that. 

About 3 years ago I meet someone and because of this it required me to move away from home. I did not want to leave her behind because I could see her getting older now and I wanted to be with her until the very end, so I tried to go back home as often as I could to see her make she she was ok and to show her I still loved her and would never forget her ever.

About a year and a half away from home my family made the choice to put Brat (Fluffster) up for adoption. I was so heartbroken by this I could not think how she could have felt and I wish I could have bin there for her at that moment in time to say goodbye to him and be there for her. 

A year ago my mom called me (Jan 2015) she told me Baby was not doing so good and the vet told her to start giving Baby some meds to help her with the pain in her hips. I was so scared for her I had never lost a pet really before in all my life and I was not ready to lose her. 

I had a very very hard time trying to find a way to go see her and soon I found out my younger sister was having a baby as well so I HAD to go home at some point I just HAD too. 

In September I was finally able to go to home and see her, I was not able to stay very long but the one night Baby some how managed to get herself downstairs to my room and sat at my bed and just kept whimpering for me to pet her I pet her all night till I fell asleep and she ended up sleeping in my doorway as if to tell me not to leave. I had to leave tho but promised I would be back in a month 

In October I managed to make it back down on Halloween. My sister ended up having her baby that day as well and it was the most amazing thing ever to see her little girl for the first time ever. She has red hair just like me and my sis. She is an angel to us. 

I did spend time with Baby as well she was so excited to see me she ended up getting sick and I cleaned it up. My family and I watched fast and furious 7 and I gave her a few of my fries I was eating when no one was looking. 

The day I left she just sat in the living room watching as I took my stuff to the car. When I had to leave I walked up to her and gave her a really long hug and started to cry I told her she was an amazing dog and I loved her move then anything and I promised I would come back as soon as I could to see her. I kept telling her she was an amazing dog and to never ever think I don't love her because if I could take her I would. I let go of my hug on her and she just looked at me with her sad puppy eyes, I told her one last time that I loved her and to take very good of my sisters baby while I was gone. She was the last thing I saw before I left.....

As I was driving home it started to rain a little and "see you again - wiz khalifa" started to play. I started to sing it thinking about her and I started to cry I hoped so hard more then anything I would be able to see her again... I wish I could have...

I called almost every day to find out about the my sisters baby and how Baby was doing as well. About 4 days with my sis and the baby being in the hospital she was able to take her home and show Baby the newest member of the family. I called the day they took the baby home to ask how everything was going and my mom said everything was fine. I told everyone goodnight and we all went to bed...



The next day my mom called me, she said she needed to talk to my bf about something which I found to be weird but I did not really question it. I told her he was at work but would be home at 5. When my bf got home I got him to call my mom they talked for a few mins and then he handed the phone to me. My mom asked if I was sitting down, I went and sat on the couch and my bf cane and hugged me. Then she told me

"Baby passed away last night"

I was so confused I started to cry I could not believe it I kept say no its not true how could this happen.

My mom said last night they went to bed and Baby went and curled up next to the babys crib and just fell asleep there my mom went and pet her and said goodnight to her and the baby and went to bed and when she woke up Baby just...did not wake up... 

I lost my best friend that day.... I lost a peace of my heart....If I could do anything to have her back I would she was the worlds best dog and I miss her more then anything. 

I have not bin able to go home yet but as soon as I do I am going to go to her grave and do something nice for her I don't know what it will be yet but I am going to do something for her and morn her properly. 

For not this is the least I can do for her. 

I love you Baby and I miss you... I hope you are in no pain in Heaven, and I hope you look down and protect me and all of my family because you are an angel. Your my best friend and I will never EVER forget you.